Thursday, July 7, 2011


Well... tomorrow, July 8th, is the 2-year anniversary since my Kimi went to heaven. I cant believe I haven't spoke with my mama in two years... there was a time that going two hours without speaking with her was difficult. I still of course feel her presence and know she is near. But, losing her is still the deepest pain i know. And, there are days that pain comes rolling in like a freight train. She was the most love i have ever experienced. And, I am so grateful to have had such a wonderful mother who loved me so.

There is so much i loved about my mom... She was so humble, lovable, sweet and childlike! 

Here is one of my favorite stories about my mom:
Before Caleb and I moved down to Arizona the family had a party to say goodbye to us... It was a very special night i remember. I was very excited to be married to Caleb and to move to Arizona and start a family with him. Kimi was excited for me too, but with some sad undertones.  That night Kimi was trying to figure out how I was going to get the China I was inheriting down to Arizona. It was from my dad's mother, and my mom had been holding it for me until I had my own place. It's really beautiful China too... I think i would choose that China even if i had 100s to choose from. That night after we had figured out how we were going to get the China to Arizona, Caleb overheard Kimi telling a family member that the china set wasn't a complete set. Kimi said she had spent the past ten years searching for missing pieces on ebay so that i could have the complete set.  She never told ME that. I still think about that story. It was so her... doing the most thoughtful thing and taking absolutely no credit for it. Now, everytime I use the China I think of two of the most uniquely, lovable women I ever knew.

I love stories like this. Please help me collect kimi stories... I still plan to take all my blog posts from CaringBridge.org and create a book. I'd also cherish any stories that you want to send my way! :) you can send them to my email, hil.j.anderson@gmail.com. I would love to be able to read stories about her, and to share with my kids (hopefully) so they too can know her.

Please take a moment and thank God for the time we all got with Kimi. Then thank Him for your own mama...and for others that are close to you. We are blessed!


  1. Thinking of you and your sweet momma, Hil. Miss her and her smiling face so much. Love you, dear.

  2. You will be in many of my thoughts & prayers tomrrow Hilary. She was an amazing mother, friend...and friend to all. I still remember laying in my hospital room at the age of six thinking i was going to die...then your sweet mom came in the room and made me feel at ease and things will be fine. She told me stories about you & your brother out at the beach & how excited it would soon be when we could all play together. All i could then think about was the beach and my mind was taken off other things. Your mom was special and will always be special by the ones who's lives she impacted so greatly.
    I'm sure there is not a day that goes by where you don't miss her. I can only imagine how proud she is of her beautiful & talented daugher. She loves you & she misses you too!
    XO- michelle