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Friday, July 6, 2012

may 14

I turned 30 this past weekend!!!!! I was feeling bloated from all the meds--- not super sexy.. Caleb planned the whole weekend as a surprise, it was over the top. Saturday we had a volleyball tournament in the morning which i loved. Then the girls all surprised me at the bowling alley for a couple rounds of bowling.. LOVED that. Later that night Caleb arranged for lots of friends to meet us at The Side Door for a couple drinks. I only had two--- had to break my no alcohol for my 30th bday!!! :) The next day was mothers day... Which is double hard for me-- mainly because I don't have my mama. What I wouldn't give to celebrate her one more time. Caleb took me to a lovely hotel in Huntington Beach to spend the night... but the spoiling didn't stop there, he arranged a gondola ride through Newport Harbor. It was right at sunset, complete with champagne and dessert. He is amazing, and sooooo sweet!!!

This morning we woke up and drove into our ultrasound appointment. I felt like I was carrying a watermelon in my belly, Dr. Acacio confirmed that the eggs looked good plentiful. He said I was like an Easter bunny with a really full basket of eggs!!! He also informed us that we could trigger the hcg shot tomorrow night. :) We meet with Cool nurse Sheri to go over my new medication lists. We get to take a little break from the shots :) just the HCG tomorrow, and none tomorrow. :) surgery to remove eggs is scheduled for Thursday morning.

I'm excited for the menopur, gonal f and lupron to be done with!!!
May 7th.

Caleb and I had an ultrasound this am and an estrodil checkup. Ultrasound was to check for cysts, my uterine lining, and egg growth. Results were great, no cysts, lining looks good, eggs look good.. The nurse left the room talking about what beautiful ovaries i had.. as if they were a pair of earrings or something. Caleb and I high fived each other, got dressed and moved to the next Dr. station. Blood draw to check the Estrodil levels- they were in range so we are cleared for more shots.

The Dr. lowered my dosages for the remainder of the month, out of fear of over-stimulating me. I'm on the low-low-low hormone stimulating cycle and still doing great! :) We begin Menopur and Gonal F  shots this evening. These are a little more challenging then the Lupron. Menopur requires some mixing of powders and liquids and needle changes, should be interesting. Gonal F is a funny Pen-like needle.

We are going to try taking my roids at night time to see if i cant get a better nights sleep? We shall see!
May 2nd, 2012... although I dont plan on publishing this until after our invirto process i still want to write about it and share it with everyone when its over.

I began taking birth control at the end of march-ironic right? Birth control is used to match my cycle with the clinics cycle. Also, it suppresses the chance of cysts and endometriosis growth. I never responded well to birth control, I tried to take it before Caleb and I got married... and was worried that we wouldn't make it to the alter with my crazy attitude, so I only stayed on it for 2 months. So... this time was no different, lots of tears and emotions. Last night was the last pill I will ever have to take! HURRAY! We survived!

We began shots of lupron on Saturday April 28th. Shots go in to my tummy... Caleb administers them. Flashback: 12 year old Hilary getting blood taken to check iron levels kicking and screaming. Mama kimi literally had to sit on me to get the blood test done. Quite embarrassing for kimi in front of her co-workers. I was a total spas and terrified of needles. She must be smiling down on me from heaven thinking about how much i have grown! First shot Caleb gave me was not my favorite. I laid flat on my back and I think it hurt because it went into my muscle. Now I hunch over and he can get some tummy fat to shoot into. NOT so bad!  :)  April 28th I also began roids... yep, I'm on steroids, never thought I would ever be on the roids. they are fine though, just messing up my sleep cycle.

Found the best acupuncturist whom i absolutely love! Dr. Daniel Lee, his office is wallpapered with pictures of pregnant woman. You just know you are in good hands. He puts little electrons on the needles and I can feel them go tick tick. It's a little strange. but, I know it works. He put me on herbs-pill form thank goodness. Took me off coffee-regular and decaf, Tea, dairy, alcohol, and red meat. So lets see here, I'm on birth control pills that make me hard to be around-to put it nicely... then you take away my favorite foods?! PERFECT.

Today I had my fluid ultrasound. Bad news, the fluid ultrasound hurt like crazyyyyy. I wasn't quite prepared for that. Good news is I have lots of potential eggs--- which is crazy because I'm on the low hormone dosage. Dr. Acacio was so impressed with my eggs. I am cleared to begin the cycle, so far so good.

By my bedside I have a picture of perhaps my favorite kiddo in the world... who just happens to be an invitro baby. So, every morning while I prepare my shot, I glance over at the picture and am reminded that its so worth it!

All this to say, we are beyond grateful that we get to be on this journey- we knew this process wouldn't be easy.

Monday, April 30, 2012

Spring things

Hello all, an update long overdue...

Caleb and I have settled into our life in California so easily. In January Caleb got a job with Mariners Church in Irvine and could not be happier! He is currently a pastor at large and will settle into a set location soon. It's a fabulous church with three campuses and lots of fun new friends. I love going into work with him and seeing some friends. I joke about getting an office there... because I love all the people so much!

I completed my Basi Pilates Certification. It took a ton of dedication and hard work. I drove up to Costa Mesa almost  everyday to study at On Center Conditioning Studio, Basi Pilates headquarters. I was able to study with some of the best instructors and LOVED every minute of it. I was so honored when Stella in the main office asked me to become one of the fabulous on center studio trainers. I am excited about being constantly surrounded with the best of the best instructors and students. I also currently work at my Dana Point studio which is AWESOME too! I love the owner Tianna, she is so sweet and fun to work with and for. She also has been a wonderful instructor to learn from. She let me bring my volleyball girls in to do some jump-training classes too. Its normally the highlight of my week, my two favorite things... my volleyball girls and pilates.

Caleb and I also began coaching volleyball for 949 volleyball club. We were so blessed with such an amazing group of girls, and parents! Caleb always teases me because I'm on the phone texting, snap-chatting or draw-something with one of the girls! I have loved having 11 joyful girls in my life to love on. They are fabulous. And our parents are amazing... we could not have asked for a better experience or team.

I'm sure most of you are curious as to how we are doing on the baby-making front. We met out new Dr down here last November... I originally went to him because he is a reproductive endocrinologist, and I just wanted to get my thyroid tested. At my first appointment he informed me that the endometriosis that was burned off during my surgery would begin to grow back, so time was of the essence. With a new doctor and new medications, I had restored hope. Unfortunately, our costly procedures did not result in a pregnancy. And left me with a hole in my heart. I was pretty depressed after two failed procedures. We knew that we needed to move forward to IVF, but were uncertain how we could pay for it, and also nervous about the process. On February 14th I got the best valentines gift ever! Janey Pinneo (who ironically starred in my last blog update as the angel who helped me pack up my house) called me with an incredible gift. She and her daughter Chelsea recently spent some time together and had decided they wanted to start a fundraiser for our invitro process. SILENCE. Tears. I was so overwhelmed. I muttered YES thank you, thank you, thank you. Praise the LORD!  Having lost my mom... I didn't really know who to ask for help, and was terrified to ask. Caleb's family had already helped so much with our prior treatments. We currently are still paying off our two treatments from december and january... That did include a full std workup... for us two happily married people. California state law- a little ridiculous, $1000 later... turns out we were std free... and they were ready to work with us.

Another huge blessing my sweet friend Kellie Kaufman dedicated the month of April to me. Every time anyone goes to her facebook page:

http://www.facebook.com/?ref=home#!/pages/Wrap-Me-Skinny-with-Kellie/215920831835763

and writes anderson on it... she personally gives a dollar to my fund.  I feel so loved and blessed by the support we have received by our friends and family. And I know many people have been praying for us, which is just as valuable to us! :)

Our doctor and his fabulous team have been so incredibly helpful. We qualified for their access program which gave us a discounted rate.  Because I have no problem making lots of eggs, they said that we could do a low-hormone cycle too which means less shots/hormones for me! :) they combined the two programs giving us the best of both. A normal invitro cycle can cost up to 25,000 dollars. Ours will be around the 12-13,000 dollar range, which is great!

We will probably get moving on invitro in the next couple of months... so stay tuned, and keep the prayers coming. We are so grateful for all our supporters and prayer warriors.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Capo Beach, California.. Our new home.


It's been quite a while since I updated the blog, but we have been SOO busy with the move and all that entails. Caleb got down to California late August and found work and an apartment. Our landlord was sweet enough to leave the apartment furnished for Caleb until I got down. I must say, Caleb did GOOD work... I LOVE our apartment, and so does Emma. more on that later.

I worked pretty much up until the day we moved, at both the studio and at the Tides. It was hectic to say the least. When I wasn't at work I was busy selling the bulk of our things on Craigslist. I had GREAT luck and sold pretty much everything that we needed to sell. What I didn't sell on Craigslist I sold at my Garage sale. Which I could have not put together without the help of my beach-neighbor and Stand-in-mama, Janey Pinneo. It was rather overwhelming for me to pare down so much stuff... And you might be thinking, "Why was there so much to pare down?" Because I had a LOT of my mothers things that needed to go. Mainly crafting things, clothes, and other knick knacks... but, it all added up to a bunch of stuff. I wasn't really able to think clearly about my mother's stuff... How could I figure out what was the most important items to keep. I began to get anxious and emotional just entering the house. So one morning while I was on my run, on the brink of tears... I prayed that someone would be willing/ask if they could help. It was a simple prayer, and I trusted that God would answer it. And he worked FAST, by the time I got home I had received an email from Janey asking if I would need any help getting ready for the garage sale. I wiped some tears away and gratefully accepted the help. It was clear to me that it was a divine appointment.  To me, losing my mom was the hugest void and loss I could fathom. So when God shows me that he's got me, he's making sure that i am being taken care of... Its the sweetest most intimate feeling.

After two days of help, I was ready for a sale... or so I thought. Garage sales are, not exactly my favorite!  :) but, I had wonderful help from 3 lovely friends. Emily Tollefson on Friday, Long time friend Janna Trolia both Friday and Saturday. And Tracie Parker Saturday and Sunday. For the most part everything went so smoothly. I didn't love people looking and touching my/my mothers things... But, I knew there was an end in sight. And after a long 5 weeks a husband at the end of the tunnel.

I was so excited to see Caleb when he got to me. It was a long time to not see the hubby and was so happy to have him with me again. He accompanied me to my last day at the Tides, I had him take me in early so I could put flowers on my tables. I had wonderful customers for my last day AND gma, Karen, jack and Caleb had lunch in my section as well. As I delivered my last tray of food I cried and the room clapped. After I clocked off, we all gathered in the lower room and had wine, laughed, cried and ate the yummiest cake of all time made by la coco Hampton!  The Tides has been more then a job to me. I worked at the Tides for 7 years, and has been more like a family to me. I was so incredibly supported through out the loss of my mom... and my larazmapam days (zombie days) I was never short of a shoulder to cry on. I am going to miss our rainy day recess on Tuesdays and silly chore lists, boot dances and twirls. But, most of all I will miss my tides family.

After the tides goodbye, Caleb and I had lots more work to do around the house. We worked tirelessly getting all of our stuff either packed goodwill'd or dumped. I was pooped, just in time for my half Marathon on Sunday morning... Which I ran in 2:04, rather proud of myself... it was a hilly course. Caleb MC'd the Prayer breakfast for the race for a soldier which was awesome. It was a very emotional race as we are so close with Leslie and the cause. After the race Caleb and I went over to the house and finished cleaning/packing and got ready for our goodbye party at the Tides. My boys, Dad and Aaron drove over from leavenworth for the dinner with the family. (which is 3 hours both ways)
I love my boys.. :) We had a lovely family goodbye dinner that was so sweet. I have the best family in the world! I will have a hard time not seeing them all the time. They have been so supportive and loving to both Caleb and I.

So many friends came to our going away party it was incredible. We felt so loved and supported.









So many more too! The next morning we left the beach early at 7am and headed in for one last meal with gma and gpa. I don't think we were hungry until dinner after our pan-i-cake feast! I had my first pancake with an egg on top... Pretty tasty. :)  Our drive down was pretty uneventful, even for the Emmacat she just laid in her carrier and took naps... pretty cute. I wish I could take her everywhere with me! :)

Caleb had multiple surprises for me upon arrival, including a get to know orange county book he put together for me complete with directions to all the coolest spots. He also arranged a fun night with friends at Dave and Busters, it was fun getting to know some orange county peeps. We have been busy getting situated in our smaller, but adorable place. Since we sold most of our things we are sorta starting from scratch again. It's coming together. I will post pics of the "after" soon... but, here is a before pic
We are very very very happy with our apartment and location. We are in South Orange County in a city called Capistrano Beach. It honestly reminds me of Southern Spain in a lot of ways. the architecture, climate and landscape. Caleb has been busy working, and I have been nesting. I guess I should start looking for work, but it feels so good to rest a bit after my busy summer. Last weekend we went up to my first Trojan football game, and it was quite a game! All in all we are happy and loving our new simple life. I am embracing our smaller space and loving the organization challenge. I am grateful for everything we have, especially each other.

Love hilly


Monday, September 26, 2011

Downsizing hurts.

Downsizing hurts.

When my step dad sold the soundview house, I didn't put much thought into what i grabbed of my mothers, I just grabbed it. I wanted to have and hold everything that she once held. There is a part of me that is so afraid to let go of anything that was hers out of fear that I will forget her. Or some items that I couldn't FATHOM letting go of. But, I cant hold onto everything for ever and they are just that... THINGS. So, for instance instead of keeping every recipe card she ever wrote.. I'm only keeping the ones I remember, liked and will use. I know it sounds silly, but it was a big step for me throwing away something that had her handwriting on it.  I have taken this attitude with my whole house as we begin to downsize. I can keep one of the things that meant a lot to me, not 10. Memory is still there, and perhaps better! I can actually see the things now that I value.

Tonight I sold my mom's old sofa. It was a cute little love-seat. I could imagine it re-upholstered some day, it would be the cutest. But, lets face it... I might never get around to updating the sofa, and I don't need the sofa. So, the lady who bought the sofa informed me that it was going to her salon and would be where the women sat to get their pedicures. HOW perfect! I can still go visit my sofa, and my kimi LOVED pedicures... We used to have pedi dates all the time, so I couldn't be happier.

I'm excited to live a little more simple. It's our new plan. Only keep what we need, and that isn't much!

SO, I've decided to have a garage sale with all my extra stuff. I will have a preview this sunday for any friends who are interested in looking...  I will be here from 12-8pm, and you can of course call and set up a time to come by and see what I have if you are interested.

Official garage sale will be the following weekend.

Caleb will be coming back up here on the 10th or 11th and we will begin to get everything paired down to move. We leave on monday the 17th and will be having a going away party on the 16th at the Tides and would love to see everyone one last time before our big move!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Exciting news

Caleb and I have some exciting news!!!! (that doesn't involve a pregnancy... yet!) We are moving to California. We had thought/prayed/dreamed about the move for a long time and it is finally for certain. We are moving. When Caleb's contract ended at the YMCA we started thinking about what we would do next. As many of you know, Caleb grew up in Southern California. We always thought we might end up there at some point, we just didn't know when. We LOVE living in Gig Harbor, but, at least for now, we feel in our hearts that there is more opportunity in California. Caleb has almost 20 years worth of relationships and connections down there, and he's already secured some projects.

So, Caleb has lined-up contract work with Brett Eastman and Life Together - with ties to Saddleback Church - doing small group content development, training, and coaching. He's also working on media projects for Contexture Int'l... and he's talking to a couple other companies. (Oh, and he's been asked to coach volleyball - we'll see about that one.)

I will be pursuing my Pilates and hopefully find somewhere to speak Spanish! :) I'm looking forward to the sunshine, beach, and palm trees.

We found a condo we'll rent in San Juan Capistrano. It will be a more "petite" place :) I will have fun learning to be an organizing wizard to fit all my stuff in the little condo. Where am I going to put my Christmas decor???? I think I will quickly get over it as I WALK to the beach! How exciting! WALK TO THE BEACH!

This has been a difficult past few months for me as I contemplate moving out of our house, and leaving my family and friends. I love the home that we have created in the Harbor. I love running into cousins everywhere I turn. I love seeing my sweet gma and gpa for visits. I love sewing with my auntie karen. I love playing at the lake with jack, cindy and kelsey. I love seeing my ally boo at the tides. I just love my family and friends, and I will miss everyone SO MUCH. But Caleb and I will be back up here often. We'll visit regularly and we'll stay connected. And we'll hope to see all the "snow birds" that fly south in the winter!

Plus, I'll keep posting blogs as our lives unfold... so stay tuned!! Much love and gratitude. Until next time...